Lost

I want to talk about why I am feeling lost, like a girl in the woods with her back to the light and no path in sight.

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My writing has always been unapologetically me. Despite the topic of conversation, FromBrownEyes has always been authentic. And because of that authenticity, many times it has been scary. I have talked candidly about ethnic shaming, my relationship ending , and missed opportunities to name a few. And it has taken a lot of bravery.

But the honesty in my posts is what allows me to grow, accepting my failures, my past, and my self.

But I haven’t felt like myself. Which is a shame, because I love who I am.

In recent months, I have found myself too often closing my eyes, shake my head, and ask myself, “Why am I acting this way? Why am I doing this? Why is this happening?”

I have shocked myself by making a comment that came from a place of absolutely no patience. I have thought about applying for jobs that don’t interest me and won’t further my goals. I have let, even asked, others to make key decisions for me. I have not been consistent with my core values, like loyalty and respect.

I feel scattered, convoluted, and lost.

And I think it is because I haven’t been writing. I only write about the things that matter to me, the things I love. So when I don’t write, I find that I lose sight of what is important to me.

Am I too busy for my own good? Am I again trying to be all things to all people without being all things to myself first?

A year ago, I felt like me. Right now, I’m not too sure. Where did that girl go? Alone in the woods, jumping with joy, a clear path before her.

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I want her back, so it is time for a personal reset. I am going to take today for myself. To write and work, think and reflect, feel and heal. To be all things to me first, at least for today.

-TM

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